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I like how recording artists release their work. The music of their heart and soul is poured out daily until they let go of a compilation. It is… released.
Released by a few bad shifts at work
Mindset is productivity
Responsibility and discipline highlighted
By their absence
Mindset as soil
Ideas as seeds.
Ever-changing soil can nurture seeds
Into rooted theories and concepts.
It can be too acidic.
It can ferment.
Sometimes, my mindset can give birth to noxiously attractive ideas.
Like a train wreck.
Perpetuation of Self Harm and Substance Abuse
I’ve done a lot of self-experimentation. Recently, I’ve tried removing certain distracting elements from my life. I think of them as “easy” or more accurately, “obvious.”
I’ve written about these more specifically.
It would be a compliment if you sifted through this website.
I would love to connect and talk too.
Subtraction Past Zero
Assuming you can, once you remove the obvious elements from your life that are holding you back, you would think a massive light would emanate from your chest. It would feel like a sci-fi phoenix rebirth. You would hatch new colorful feathers and majestically screech like an eagle.
The truth is, it’s shockingly the opposite. You begin to miss having something obvious to blame. It was nice to feel like garbage, knowing you shouldn’t have drank last night. It felt comforting to say, I’ll eat healthy this time for lunch.
I liked having an easy answer.
Once you remove the obvious, you begin to see the less obvious. All of the repressions from your past begin to surface.
You are left with everything left of zero.
Think of this scale:
Subtractions : -5 -4 -3 -2 -1 <0> 1 2 3 4 5 : Additions
When your lifestyle is full of easy things to blame, you’re somewhere around 5. The subtraction of those things take you closer to where you’d like to be: zero.
Blame is the Trend
Continuing to find things to blame is the trend. You spend time focusing on blaming diet choices, exercise habits, and substance abuse. That focus carries you past zero and into the negativity of blaming your job, blaming loved ones around you, and blaming yourself. When you continue blaming things, you get further from zero and closer to -5.
Balance Blame with Love
You have to see the good in the world around you. You have to subtract a bad habit and replace it with a good one. After my father quit smoking cigarettes he told me he began to taste food again. His life had flavor again! He gained appreciation for having stamina. At that time in his life, he went to the gym again and got into great shape. I remember he would flex his bicep and challenge me to wrap my hands all the way around his arm.
Allow light to displace the shadows of negativity and engorge your life with love and self improvement.
You’re Not Alone
The heaviest thoughts when you’re low are thoughts of isolation. You want to be alone. You want to retreat. You feel like you deserve the blame and hatred for yourself.
I promise you, you’re not alone. There is a world of people who have lived through everything you’re dealing with. There is almost always someone In reach who has dealt with what you’re dealt. Everyone deserves to know,
You are Not Alone
I want the best for you.
I want you to feel.
I want you to taste.
I want your life to have flavor and light and excitement.
I want you to feel the love you have for yourself.
I know you are capable.
I know it’s somewhere inside of you.
Please, try and see it too.
Try and look past the shadows.
You deserve this.
You’re worth it.
Thank you, endlessly.
Thank you for your love, your support, your time.
You make my day better.
Always feel free to reach out.
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